you will probably never read this

now i found it

i found you

but you haven't found me

i know you don't want to be friends anymore

you treat me like I'm trash

someone who doesn't matter

i don't need that

id rather be around someone who cares

who doesn't cringe when they hug me

i look up to you

and you might not care but you tore me down

when i see what you see it makes me sad

i want to cry and cry out

i want to make you see that i want to be friends

because of all you are

you are shaping who i am

i like it because i like you

but you are being horrible to me

and tearing me down inside

i don't want to have to buy your friendship

so I'm done

until you show me that you still care

I'm going to try and distance myself from you

because what they say is true

your making a bad influence

and its not because of what you do

its because of what you think

of me

and I'm trying so hard to be everything you want

but its not good enough

so I'm going to try and be someone else's role model

and I'm not going to let them down

I'm going to be someone that gives a shit

because everyone needs that person

and i needed you

but now its too late

you were always to good for me

so I'm saying goodbye

not from life

but from what i think will never be repaired

you broke my heart

and you don't even know it.