*goodbye*

it feels like this meens nothing

why doesnt it matter

its a life

why dont i care

others care more than i do

yet im greedy

i know i am

i make a conciouse decision to make myself happy over others

but in the end it doesnt make a difference

i dont care

they say they love me

i think they do

why dont i

i dont care

i feel like i have nothing to live for

in the end its another day

another thursday i have to dread

another morning i have to get up early

why

i dont want to anymore

im sick of this stupid routine

im sick of not giving a shit

but still i dont

i cant pretend to be something im not

iv done it for so many years now

its over

im over

this is me

i dont care for others

i dont care about my body

but i care when people judge me

and i judge others

im harsh and not fare

i think to myself

if i get that one more thing

then i will be happy

im so dumb

people envy me

you can have my things

i waste them

why do i put myself into these situations

i need a reason to go on

this is not a cry for help

i dont need to see a doctor

im just not 100%

im going to spend the next 3 weeks feeling like this

unless if find my key

something to make me happy

i see others around me happy

thay say its easy

im not depressed

i tell other people that they are

i tell them to smile

i never understood

i understand now

im not sick

im just misunderstood

i dont need help

i just need reason